6. Tired of the Rejection: A Cry from the Heart

I’m overwhelmed with anger and sadness that my daughter has chosen to leave her home, our home, to go live with her father. A man who has consistently shown that he doesn’t truly care for her. A man who always puts himself first. A man who stood by while his wife verbally abused me over the phone in front of our daughter, simply because he lacks the courage to stand up for what’s right.

I keep asking myself: is my daughter staying with him because she genuinely wants to? Or does she feel like she has no other choice? I can’t understand how anyone would willingly live in a house with someone who clearly dislikes them. His wife has openly said she doesn’t like my daughter, and my daughter has made it clear she doesn’t like her either. So why stay? And here’s the harder thought: am I missing something deeper? Is my daughter just like my mother? Two-faced, saying one thing and doing another? What did I do to deserve this kind of treatment from the people who are supposed to love me?

Today, I confronted my mother about her lies, again. She lied straight to my face, even when I caught her in it. She’s been lying about my brother for so long, and it’s driven a wedge between us that might never heal. I know she’s getting older, and maybe her memory isn’t what it used to be, but that doesn’t excuse her bitterness or the way she twists things to suit herself.

I know I probably should apologise for how I spoke to her today. She is still my mother. But she was wrong. And she always paints herself as the victim, blaming her children for being distant, when in reality, she’s the one who pushed us away.I used to try, I really did. I called, I visited, I made an effort. And she rejected it. Once, she even asked why I was suddenly making the effort, like it was suspicious. So I stopped.

Today she accused me of not caring, of never checking in. But she never calls me either. Her phone is usually off. Yet she has time for her pastor, her church friends, just not for me.

I’m exhausted. I’m tired of the constant rejection. I’m tired of being surrounded by people who should love me, but don’t show it. My family feels disloyal, distant, and cruel and I don’t know how much more I can take.

(25th Apr 2025)